Take the next step

Recently I went to Las Vegas for a business conference. It was my first time in Las Vegas so during a break between sessions a group of us decided to walk the "strip". Visiting Vegas is probably one of the last places I cared to visit because I don't gamble and I had all kinds of preconceived ideas of what "sin city" would be like. But I do enjoy architecture and was fascinated by how enormous and detailed the buildings were. I was looking forward to the walk with camera slung around my neck in typical tourist fashion.
Now apparently, it never rains in Las Vegas but that morning it did. So all the smooth shiny sidewalks were slippery and a disaster waiting to happen for someone not stable on their feet. That someone was me. Down I fell. My prosthetic foot had no feeling, so naturally, I couldn't tell how slippery the sidewalk was until I committed to the step. Once my body weight was all resting on my stiff metal foot, I had no chance for correction and into the puddle I went! I some how managed to save my camera as I fell but not my nice dress pants. I was soaked and slightly soar but my pride was hurt most of all. The other girls rushed to my side and offered to help. But I got back up as quickly as I could and laughed it off. I kept on walking only to have the whole thing happen again a few feet away.
So down I went again. Not just once, nor twice but three times I fell on the busy, slick sidewalk. I could only imagine what everyone was thinking as I slowly put one foot in front of the other strategically taking each move, all the while looking like I had wet myself. I'm thankful I was not hurt during each fall and that I never dropped my camera, but my pride was another thing.
I felt singled out. Not like everyone else and for the simplest of things, I couldn't keep from falling. I threw a mental pity party "oh, how pitiful I am being an amputee. I will never be like everyone else who can be confident in every step they take. Why does life always have to be harder for me." I felt like crying or at least catching the nearest cab back to my hotel room to hide away. But as everyone around me was carrying on and enjoying their day I realized that I was the only one at my pity party. So I had to make a choice. I could stay on the ground and sulk or I could get up and enjoy the rest of our journey. I opted to keep going. I saw alot of great buildings and took lots of pictures. I had fun after all.
It would have been easy to give myself the excuse to give up and go back but I would have missed out on so much. Many "falls" in life seem to end up the same way. Rather than getting caught up in the situation and comparing ourselves to others we just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and stay focused on enjoying MY journey. Making that decision doesn't always come naturally. I remember many times when I did stay in self pity while jealously and bitterness grew. There is nothing good that comes from that so I knew it was best to leave the self pity alone entirely.
Then I heard a great quote that changed my whole way of thinking. I believe it was Tom Barrett who said "It's not about the fall but what you do when you are down that counts." That meant so much to me because all the time I had been focusing on "poor me" and my circumstances, I was missing out on all the positive things that could come from them. I had to change my focus. Trails may come and we may fall down but we do have the choice to get back up. We can learn from it and move on. If we trust in God to help us we can persevere through some pretty tough stuff. It's helpful to remember that God doesn't promise there wont be any hard times but he does promise we don't have to face them alone. Our journey may be tough at times and we may even feel like we are given more than our fair share of troubles but be confident that no matter how many falls you take, God is with you every step of the way and will help you get back up.
Everyone's journey is different. No one travels the same road because we are free to make our own decisions that may change our direction. And sometimes our journey is different because God knows what we need to help us trust in him. He uses our trials to help us grow a little bit wiser and more dependant on him. I can think of many occasions when at the end of the trial I was able to look inside myself and see how I matured as a christian and how deeper my relationship with God had gotten. And I praise him for it even though those tough times leave me emotionally and sometimes physically bruised. It was all worth it to have a deeper walk with God.
There are even times when we face trials because God knows what our response will be and he knows that people are watching. Each time I fell, it was very public. People around were watching to see what I would do. And each time I got back up they were grateful for my attitude. When we got back to the hotel, I overheard several of them telling others about my perseverance and determination to not give up. Although, I had fallen they were able to be inspired. We may not always know if people are seeing the troubles we face but they can see our reaction to it by the attitude we take. That's why it's important to cast all your cares upon God and allow him to guide you through. Again taking the focus off yourself and even your circumstances and on to God and the everlasting peace only he can provide. I can't know for sure where my journey will take me but I do believe that he has many blessing waiting to happen if I keep taking steps forward in faith. The same is true for you!
So if you have fallen down in life. Don't sit in the puddle and cry. Get back up brush away the fear and frustration. Look up in faith and take the next step.